Tuesday, November 15, 2005

Current emotion: depressed

Feeling introspective tonight, and figured I'd do a bit of stream-of-consciousness writing that I may regret tomorrow. Whatever. Since I finished reading the North Star book, I have felt much calmer lately...renewed. On the other hand, however, my actions tell me that something is quite amiss. I called in sick to work two days straight (plus a scheduled day off) and never even got out of my pajamas. I never brushed my hair. I have far fewer friends than ever before, and have stopped socializing to a large degree. Blogging helps, but comments have dropped off lately, probably due in part to my not participating in challenges. I guess that all spikes of depression. How odd that I feel so much better inside then. I guess because I finally feel ready for a change. Granted, Sunday was the second year anniversary of my dad's death, and a year since my boyfriend disappeared off the face of the earth. Those last two events have sent my weight skyrocketing up about 40 pounds. That certainly doesn't help matters any. Too, without a close family I find this a difficult time of year. Add to the lot a job that I just cannot stand one minute longer, and...there you go. The question is...
NOW WHAT?

7 Comments:

Blogger Kelvin said...

Kia Ora (Hello) from that krazy blogger down under in New Zealand.
Hey - come on, cheer up. So what if you have put on a little bit more weight. It is whats on the outside that counts, its whats on the inside &&&&& going by your posts, you are one wonderful woman !!! There I said and as friends will tell you, you have to put a chalk mark up on the wall when you get a comment from me. The number of comments I wouldn't even have to take my shoes & socks off to count the number of comments people have left me over the few days, even though "profile views have shot up from 2619 on the 12th to 3009 today, 16th, So don't worry too much about comments - I never do take care & God Bless !!!(My one comment is woth 10 !!!)

12:48 AM  
Blogger Kelvin said...

That should of been "its not what is on the outside, that counts - its whats on the inside !!!

12:50 AM  
Blogger Balwearie said...

I just can't keep up with your blogging! The cookbook is a hoot and I really like that chocolate cake.

When I get depressed, I play with the cats (Charlie, the kitten, mostly). They don't let me be sad for long. Hang in there baby! Friday's coming (now if that isn't a bit of nostalgia....)

5:00 AM  
Blogger tweety said...

Hi Barb, hope you're feeling a better. I can't keep up with your blog either, and some days I'm just too lazy to comment. I've been out of it for the past couple of weeks, but I do visit often. I love your photos and writings. I wish I can get off my butt and do something crafty!

12:42 PM  
Anonymous Sandra said...

Hi Barb,
Hope you're feeling better as I write this on Wednesday night in my timezone. I felt like this last weekend! I think it's November. The leaves are almost gone here and it gets dark early and this coupled with all the day-to-day boring stuff (work, watching one's weight, etc)- well, it'll get to ya! I think kids stay happy because they play, so maybe we should take a tip from them :o)
By the way, I read your blog every day, and though I don't always comment, I really enjoy it. "Allez, bon courage, ma belle!" as the French say.

2:39 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Here ya go! - I am actually commenting onthe blog instead of e-mailing - I'm going to miss getting a relpy in my mail box..... (We have similar needs - I need a blog!)

Now, CHEER the heck up! We love ya, you have a wonderful personality & we can lose the weight! (I don't even have a good excuse...)

Amy - still looking for a scarf, but also still recovering from an E-bay Burn.....

7:45 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I forgot - I come to work on Saturday just to read woofnanny & other blogs......

Amy

7:45 AM  

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